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Since we lost Dean.. I've been doing lots of thinking... These are questions that pop up in my mind..

If I die tonight;

 
~ How will my people react? will somebody cried? will somebody feel relieve?
~ What happen to my job? Will somebody dare to take over? Will my vacant job will not replace?
~ What happens to my personal belonging? will they keep it?
~ What happens to my friends? Will they remember me? Will they accidentally drop by my house, just to say hi?
~ What happens to my love? Will he find someone else? How soon? (If I have one..huhu)
~ What happen to my cute cat - Bobbee? Will he look for me? Will he find a new owner? What about Monyeng? Chomel?
~ What happens to my family? Will they keep talking about me? Will they remember me? Will they missed me?

...and lots more... Since we lost Dean, I've change my perception that I must live to the fullest...


I might be gone anytime so I know i must start to value the precious time while I'm alive. I might not be the perfect person to my families, my friends, my boo but i know from now on - i must try my best..

I want by the time I'm gone, all my people to have enough time spent with me before and let me go in peace... no regrets, no faulty only sweet and fond memories left behind...

I'll try to treat every day like it will be the last day for me... I'll pray every time i go to sleep and when I woke up the next day - for giving me another chance to live and being around people I loved! I still got into a fight with my sister.. or my boo... and regrets... - nobody is perfect...

I hope all people can forgive me and to halal all food that I've taken, or maybe any debt that I might not yet pay.

NTGravity : When i'm anti gravity - i showered the world with love and peace... and hoping everybody will feel it.... when their wakes up.


HaiiiT~♥
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Love to smell the freshness of grass after the rain... I envy to see in most Japanese dramas - they can just simply lay on any grasses they wanted to without thinking about the condition of it.. *well, it's drama anyways... hahaha~*



Longing to get my hands on this big-girl-toy... Will be released this month but will only reach Malaysia in June... As usual - dumped into my WishList-that-Never-be-Fulfilled...

NTGravity : Is there any spaces or arm for me to lay down....? *wink*

HaiiT~!
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It's about to rain, i think....

NtGravity : Drenched in rain is great but not in the city.... Polution....

HaiiTTttt~ !!
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Oh yes as a *selective* meat-eater - I love the smell of char-grilled meat so much~!!

What's yours?

NTGravity : I love fire.. especially during BBQ... yummmy!!

HaiiiT~

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Have you ever lost someone you care about?
 
I do...

I lost my so-called best friend a couple months ago. She has taken her own life...

Where am I that time?

I was in deep sleep at home and somewhere at 4:30am I received a phone call from her boyfriend that she has passed on. 


I rush to her apartment to see her, I was welcomed by a death note she left on her laptop sits nicely on her favourite couch. On that note, she mentioned her boyfriend who getting busier and busier each day - most of the time their both doing was being apart and  ALONE instead of having a good time together… She also told him that she has failed to be a good and understanding girlfriend and wishing him the best for everything in future. In her long written mentioned few names that were close to her.


My name was mentioned too but let it be my personal keeping.

I feel freaking d*mn guilty at first but then I know I have done so much as her friend too... The thing that makes me feel so sad as I didn’t have the chance to apologize or even sense if I hurt her or such... I saw her boyfriend, Jay cried so hard by the door that I can’t even dare to go and comfort him. I only sit limply outside... I want to hug her but I know that is too late for everything… at the same time, i was angry too for the stupid choice that she took. it's so blindedly (?!), so narrow!! so stupid!! .. but now, she's gone.. just like that...

I can't accept the fact she's gone, for good. There are a lot of people who needs her - me, her loving boyfriend, our friends, her families...

I then learn from Kevin ( it was five of us, usually lepak together), that the late friend of ours was planning to make everybody remember her. God, she really did make us! It takes me - 2 weeks 'till i really break down! it's so hurting!! i can feel my heart and the feeling uncontrollable.. the tears keep on falling... I've cried in my room for hours...



Today, I was hanging out with my other close friends (it’s five of us including her, before), we were celebrating Sheryl's getting engaged soon with her new American boyfriend and Amy suddenly pick up the phone and then… pause and look our faces? God, that's hurt!!

We all do miss her so much and we all do feel loss...


Dean (1979 - 2005),

We all will miss you. 
You will be remembered forever…. 
Although you were gone the friendship that bond between us will never die…
Goodnight, girlfriend…

NT
Gravity: One Minute Silence to everybody who lost Family members, friends especially the victims of tsunami disaster….. - Al Fatihah~

And if you have a suicidal thought of anything, please do seeks for help... please do talk to someone... 
There's no problem that can not be solved or at least to straighten things up. Please.. please.. please talk.

Remember that you are precious! Because of you, somebody is happy.

HaiiT~
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I want to dedicate this one
To my friend Dean
1979 - 2005 (Kuching - Canada)
You'll always be missed
And also everybody who lost
Family members, friends
We miss you
Y'all will always be remembered

In the loving memory of all heroes...

... to be continued...


NTGravity : It's so sad story....
Hait~!!!
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