I admit that I am an urban style person... i live most of my life in the city and so far, love it... i cant really give any reason "why" as in the city i can get whatever thing i wish for but actually because i'm used to it!
I really missed my childhood memories when my big brother and friends and me playing outdoor activities - camping, get into the mud, into a jungle, climbing here and there and whole lots of childish things... I strongly agree that childhood should be a fun moment, apart of tuitions, tuitions and more tuitions! Kids in this era mostly fear to sun and 'stupid' outdoor games. Nowadays I rarely see that anymore in my area or in the city where I live... they're more IT savvy and English fluent kind of generation now... more educated... which is very good - lesser poverty and illiterate citizens..something to proud of, but i dont really fancy kids too clever... hahaha.. irritating.. *no offence, kiddo!*
Lately, thanks to a friend, I got the chance return to nature after numerous years... Breathing fresh air, be near to the sea and give me guts to search a long lost friend... I personally think we should go more to suburban area or 'resort'... I really found the peace of mind by doing that - less traffic, less both air and noise pollutions get back to nature and old timer civilization... I feel good doing it once awhile. One of good thing live in a village - everybody knows everybody...
The first time i went back - the first breathe was amazing... almost shed my tears, it's touch my heart so deeply. The scenery were breathtaking... speechless... ((ok that exaggerate..)) Ha-ha... anyways, I’ve met my long lost friend - Ms Jamayah Bujang... i got to know her when the school term almost finish. We exchange address and picture because that's her final year in that school. I’ve tried to sent a letter to her but it's bounce back to me - I thought the postman couldn’t sent it due to the area was consider small province... as time goes by, grow up and start working - I didn’t give much thought about it... until last January 2009, when I told myself - just give it a try. The most she will not remember me or move to somewhere else. With the only photo I have in keep - I start to look for her and it's so easy cuz as i said, everybody know everybody and to my surprise - she still remember me and even know my name!! I love that moment... by that time, I got to know her and her family altogether very nice!
so it's boost my adrenaline to find more of my childhood or old school friends in the future... cuz as far as I know it bring back ol'happy memories.. don’t you think its fun? Give me buzz....
I really missed my childhood memories when my big brother and friends and me playing outdoor activities - camping, get into the mud, into a jungle, climbing here and there and whole lots of childish things... I strongly agree that childhood should be a fun moment, apart of tuitions, tuitions and more tuitions! Kids in this era mostly fear to sun and 'stupid' outdoor games. Nowadays I rarely see that anymore in my area or in the city where I live... they're more IT savvy and English fluent kind of generation now... more educated... which is very good - lesser poverty and illiterate citizens..something to proud of, but i dont really fancy kids too clever... hahaha.. irritating.. *no offence, kiddo!*
Lately, thanks to a friend, I got the chance return to nature after numerous years... Breathing fresh air, be near to the sea and give me guts to search a long lost friend... I personally think we should go more to suburban area or 'resort'... I really found the peace of mind by doing that - less traffic, less both air and noise pollutions get back to nature and old timer civilization... I feel good doing it once awhile. One of good thing live in a village - everybody knows everybody...
The first time i went back - the first breathe was amazing... almost shed my tears, it's touch my heart so deeply. The scenery were breathtaking... speechless... ((ok that exaggerate..)) Ha-ha... anyways, I’ve met my long lost friend - Ms Jamayah Bujang... i got to know her when the school term almost finish. We exchange address and picture because that's her final year in that school. I’ve tried to sent a letter to her but it's bounce back to me - I thought the postman couldn’t sent it due to the area was consider small province... as time goes by, grow up and start working - I didn’t give much thought about it... until last January 2009, when I told myself - just give it a try. The most she will not remember me or move to somewhere else. With the only photo I have in keep - I start to look for her and it's so easy cuz as i said, everybody know everybody and to my surprise - she still remember me and even know my name!! I love that moment... by that time, I got to know her and her family altogether very nice!
so it's boost my adrenaline to find more of my childhood or old school friends in the future... cuz as far as I know it bring back ol'happy memories.. don’t you think its fun? Give me buzz....
NtGravity : I love meeting people - old friends or new... but i'm poor in keeping the friendship on... in terms of updating, keep talking, connection and all.... Please forgive me... Ok?
HaiiTT!!
Why we must hurt somebody we loved?
Ahhha!! Eyezie is back with mushy mushy topic...
I was hurted before, many times, my late sweetheart left me for another girl, later again, a boyfriend have a relationship with my best friend (ironically to-date, she is still a good friend).. and years after that met a guy and he broke my heart again with his no-commitment issues..
Now i was hurt all over again with this guy who i consider my best of best friend, my superb worst nemesis and my only sweet heart whom his heart - changing which he never want to discuss.. I've learned from a friend of mine that he is a REAL womanizer.. but i never caught him red - handed yet.. His habit and activities does convinced me,tough.. The hardest part we kept on and off, which make me very tired and now i'm giving up.. He is very sweet guy and i was fall in love to his caring and sweetness and for being himself.. and even until now the love still strong and alive, it's only me..
Yet, i wonder why he kept coming over me and restart a new flame but every other time when i'm about to putting a bit of hope - he will go all over again with his distant and so on..
It's hurt me so badly cuz it's not only i'm about to lose a guy that i love but also my best friend and worst enemy.. I just hope we never even met!
Well, i'm looking for strenght to move on my life with or without him.. i'm sure will be devastated but sooner or later one of us will dissappear from this world...
I know and should admit that i do always hurting people i loved - but i always learn how to forgive and forget and move on...
Nobody is perfect, 'aight? I always believed in relationship we should be more open - mind and tell truth even if does hurt,
I lost my close friend - Dean in 2005 - she taking her own life and i do felt so hurt cuz i'm one of reason of her death.. Lonely. I hold back my tears and after a week i was crying like h*ll! How it hurt my heart and soul!
So life is so short..
we never know until when we're gonna live.. maybe tomorrow is my last day and i know i didnt do anything to make people that i loved proud of! so let's live life to the fullest and say what you want to say... dont hurt people's feeling just to get advantage of what one might have! i dont want to be lonely and i dont want another lover anymore... it's just an heartache on my list, let it be for awhile...
NtGravity : did i get any point here? who cares.. haha
Haitt!!
Ahhha!! Eyezie is back with mushy mushy topic...
I was hurted before, many times, my late sweetheart left me for another girl, later again, a boyfriend have a relationship with my best friend (ironically to-date, she is still a good friend).. and years after that met a guy and he broke my heart again with his no-commitment issues..
Now i was hurt all over again with this guy who i consider my best of best friend, my superb worst nemesis and my only sweet heart whom his heart - changing which he never want to discuss.. I've learned from a friend of mine that he is a REAL womanizer.. but i never caught him red - handed yet.. His habit and activities does convinced me,tough.. The hardest part we kept on and off, which make me very tired and now i'm giving up.. He is very sweet guy and i was fall in love to his caring and sweetness and for being himself.. and even until now the love still strong and alive, it's only me..
Yet, i wonder why he kept coming over me and restart a new flame but every other time when i'm about to putting a bit of hope - he will go all over again with his distant and so on..
It's hurt me so badly cuz it's not only i'm about to lose a guy that i love but also my best friend and worst enemy.. I just hope we never even met!
Well, i'm looking for strenght to move on my life with or without him.. i'm sure will be devastated but sooner or later one of us will dissappear from this world...
I know and should admit that i do always hurting people i loved - but i always learn how to forgive and forget and move on...
Nobody is perfect, 'aight? I always believed in relationship we should be more open - mind and tell truth even if does hurt,
I lost my close friend - Dean in 2005 - she taking her own life and i do felt so hurt cuz i'm one of reason of her death.. Lonely. I hold back my tears and after a week i was crying like h*ll! How it hurt my heart and soul!
So life is so short..
we never know until when we're gonna live.. maybe tomorrow is my last day and i know i didnt do anything to make people that i loved proud of! so let's live life to the fullest and say what you want to say... dont hurt people's feeling just to get advantage of what one might have! i dont want to be lonely and i dont want another lover anymore... it's just an heartache on my list, let it be for awhile...
NtGravity : did i get any point here? who cares.. haha
Haitt!!
Big Boys Girls Toys
Yep... it's not about teddy bear or lego set or vibrator... ( maybe for certain girls.. but let's not discuss that here... huhu)
What's my favourite toys?
I got three faves which i love dearly - my make up sets, my Nokia 7610 and 9300i communicator...
What?? Old School? So what.. it's not latest 3Gs thingee but i love those..
Like my 7610, when it 1st came into my hands as my birthday present last 2007.. Was helpless, boring and uncool handphone compare to my N70 which was lost on the same year.. But then, surf in the net and found lots of cool applications and now my 7610 were as savvy as my previous N70 (except those 3G... lalala) Well, 'nuff said i'm quite happy with it!
9300i Communicator
- erm no much to brag about cuz this phone quite versatile as it is.. the downside was no camera and i have to browse manually each folder to opened file.. but the beauty it is the WiLan connection.. i can say it's like mini laptop... now i'm trying to upgrade and transform it to E90.. hahahahah!! Get money...
Hmmm, i got new addition.. my humble Iswara - i called it 'Anfield' hahahaha... So what?
There's other like PS2 which i shared with my big brother and little sister.. Which not much to proud of... cuz i seldom play games lately and usually get bored and find easy way to complete game - using cheat or gameshark! hahaha
NTGravity : Looking forward for PSP slim, Sony Laptop and Sony Ericson W910i (which my sister dah 'sambar' 1st...!) or Nokia 6110 Navigator and Nokia E90 which still cost a fortune!) and Cool gadgets for my 'Anfield'.... Wish me luck!! ::
Haittt!?
Yep... it's not about teddy bear or lego set or vibrator... ( maybe for certain girls.. but let's not discuss that here... huhu)
What's my favourite toys?
I got three faves which i love dearly - my make up sets, my Nokia 7610 and 9300i communicator...
What?? Old School? So what.. it's not latest 3Gs thingee but i love those..
Like my 7610, when it 1st came into my hands as my birthday present last 2007.. Was helpless, boring and uncool handphone compare to my N70 which was lost on the same year.. But then, surf in the net and found lots of cool applications and now my 7610 were as savvy as my previous N70 (except those 3G... lalala) Well, 'nuff said i'm quite happy with it!
9300i Communicator
- erm no much to brag about cuz this phone quite versatile as it is.. the downside was no camera and i have to browse manually each folder to opened file.. but the beauty it is the WiLan connection.. i can say it's like mini laptop... now i'm trying to upgrade and transform it to E90.. hahahahah!! Get money...
Make Up - i considered this as a toys for me and it's my favourite.. i loved putting colours on my un-pretty face ( actually i know i'm quite cute and sweet... hahah... no, dont puke here plz.. i hate to get my blog in messed...yak yak!) Anyways, i got this crazy habit especially when i browse into 'Avon' catalogues.. yet, i've still longing to owned make up magic tools - Brushes. I do have some but it's not as good as those Make up Stylist have... cuz it's quite expensive.. to me, when you trying to put up some make ups on your face - it's not just pressed powder, lipgloss and mascara.. it's like ritual and it's kindda fun when you experiment colours and stuff.. which is which.. love it!
Hmmm, i got new addition.. my humble Iswara - i called it 'Anfield' hahahaha... So what?
There's other like PS2 which i shared with my big brother and little sister.. Which not much to proud of... cuz i seldom play games lately and usually get bored and find easy way to complete game - using cheat or gameshark! hahaha
NTGravity : Looking forward for PSP slim, Sony Laptop and Sony Ericson W910i (which my sister dah 'sambar' 1st...!) or Nokia 6110 Navigator and Nokia E90 which still cost a fortune!) and Cool gadgets for my 'Anfield'.... Wish me luck!! ::
Haittt!?
I hope it's not too late to wishes everyone...
''A Very Happy 2009.. Hopefully all your resolutions become Evolution of Prosperities of Health and Wealth..''
my resolutions this year....
X) lose weight... (my forever repeated resolution.. hehe)
X) get independent (from my beloved ex-to-be bf)
X) be a wonderful single lady...
X) to keep all my resolutions and get it done!!?
here goes... it's all mission impossible for me - more like me against my old self.. so start give me moral support ok? huhu...
*Memoir of Two Thousand and Eight*
Lots of things happening to me in this year..
2008 has witnessing my determination of job hunting.. I've searching high and low for a comfortable job that can support me, my hubby and a bit to my family..
:: Please be informed that 'my hubby' was a car ::
I've gone hundreds of interviews of various job opening and even willing to travel as far as Miami.. Crazy me, well what can i say, huh? Two Double-O Eight also witnessing those below :
:: Please be informed that 'my hubby' was a car ::
I've gone hundreds of interviews of various job opening and even willing to travel as far as Miami.. Crazy me, well what can i say, huh? Two Double-O Eight also witnessing those below :
*Most Saddest Moment*
When my beloved sweetheart starting to neglect me... and putting double standard just because of my size and my monthly dough (money)! Towards the O-eight he'd become distant and i was left out from most of his event.. lesser calls, let alone sms... i get very lonely and tired of pursuing him.
:: You know what baby, i still love you till now and always will but i guess i gonna love you and leave you...::
:: You know what baby, i still love you till now and always will but i guess i gonna love you and leave you...::
*Most Craziest Happiest Moments*
I have two of those..
1st -
I've met a bunch of crazy boys who brighten my day. Their jokes, pranks and everything in them are addictive!! Even when we gone overboard - get into rows but well that's hiccups in friendship and the next day (or crazier, in a minute then) we start new all over again! I cant even tell which was the best.. All i know when i get to know them and then experiencing the most simple and recommended 'Being Young Restoration Program' on earth is...
...Laugh! haha...
they are:
Funky 'Sakit King' Ndru ( jangan mawah!)
Pinky and the Brain (a.k.a Gendik & Sadam)
Brainiac Apai (Guru in Sports thing... should sit next to or at Shebby place... hehe)
Cheeky Onel ( All the manja and cubitan... waduhhh)
Tough Ray ( Couldnt tell what put him 'tough')
Hantu Tinggi Jimmy ( Well, haha, he is the tallest..)
Some other boys like Aaron, Ah Seng, Joelly, Mudinz, Logis, Charles, Laylek, Boy and Josh :: if i missed out names, very sorry ::
And oh yea, before i forget;
Macho Vic (i wonder where on earth is he now)...
:: You know who you are, bros'! ::
Thank you for all the time we spent- i never get enuff...
2nd -
was when i got out from a trouble i'd started.. Thank you to my loving mummy for helping me.. I was strangled in between ambitious and fantasy and get me into deep sh*t! :: whoops, pardon my word there! :: The worst part i drag my friend too... And when it's solved i was on top the world... It's like Chinese New Year, Christmas, Hari Raya and Birthday comes all in one!!! and i vow not to got myself into those again no matter what!
was when i got out from a trouble i'd started.. Thank you to my loving mummy for helping me.. I was strangled in between ambitious and fantasy and get me into deep sh*t! :: whoops, pardon my word there! :: The worst part i drag my friend too... And when it's solved i was on top the world... It's like Chinese New Year, Christmas, Hari Raya and Birthday comes all in one!!! and i vow not to got myself into those again no matter what!
* Life After '08*
I'm coming 30 this year... Wow!! A big three and O! Even my maturity and self - thinking develop smoothly towards that age but still i'm a little girl trapped in 29-coming to-30 body... Hahaha!! Who love to be pampered and attention. Although i'm about to lose love of my current life but i get to point of sense now - life GOT to move on... and if he cant appreciate me for being myself then he didnt deserve me altogether! Right-to!! GIRL POWER!!
NtGravity : That's quite impresive wasnt it? *wink! wink!* ::
Haittt!!?